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One day I was trying to update my blog because I kind of feel sorry for not keeping my blog on track the past few weeks. However, while staring at my laptop screen, I can’t seem to focus on what to write. I would say I have a lot on my mind that I want to share but I just can’t focus. Then I realized there’s nada worth sharing. All I can think of was negativity, and how the each year got worst.

So, I decided not write and let my fingers decide on when, where and what to write.

MON 12/28/2015 1800. The day Christmas break was over and I have to get back to work. (BTW, I work at night.) I can’t sleep this day maybe because I slept late on a Sunday night and woke up around 1200. Or maybe, I was just staring at the ceiling, contemplating of what happened with 2015. Okay, I was describing too much already. Let’s cut the chase and proceed with what my fingers decided to write –  My 2015.

Love shits

I was still unsuccessful to find ‘the one’. Okay, this might be desperate but hey, you would want to find the one as early as now. I’ve had two bad past relationships and it’s hard to age yearly alone. I want each of the years coming to pass spent with someone. Let’s not continue on this, I might cry.


I was hired in the month of March by the company I wanted to work with since college. However, it’s not as what I thought it should be. The job role that was given to me isn’t that technical and more of an admin task. I studied four years in college configuring networks, setting up devices, and planning infrastructures but I ended up creating tickets for troubled customers. The only technical on my job role was asking customers what they have done prior reporting their concerns (You think it’s technical?). Not really sure if I’ll end up doing the same task every day. On the brighter side, it’s still the company I wanted to work with. Then came the company spin-off. WTH!

Family Drama

I never had the perfect family. Having both unavailable parents isn’t really cool for an emotional kid like me. I stay in Manila alone, with my two siblings in Laguna with grandma. We don’t have the bond, and it’s hard to express that you miss ‘em, and you want to spend time with them and stuff.


This is frustrating I haven’t even gone getting my target weight. I am still underweight, and this has been my BMI since high school. I’ve tried many ways to gain weight but all seemed not to work. Can anyone recommend something that I could try? I’ve heard about whey, protein drink, but fully don’t know what they really do.

To sum up, 2015 is mostly boring and a few good points. Besides the year of mishaps, I still could say I am thankful for I am still here, standing and alive. No matter how dreadful life could be, I still have myself and God looking out for me. Let’s end the year with moving on, and leave all the shits behind. Place them all in the bin, and throw them away. And smile with glitters. Ta ta for now!



  1. I was wondering what company is this, but hey it’s your dream company! You many express your intent to your supervisor that you want to change your path, I think they’re open to that naman. Try mo 🙂

    I somehow understand how “desperate” you are with your lovelife. Kasi nga naman mahirap tumanda mag-isa. Sorry for your past relationships, but at least you learned lessons from them. Wish you all the love for 2016! Who knows! 🙂

    I realized how lucky I am that I am with my parents but I don’t appreciate it that much. I’m the one who doesn’t give time to them because of work. So next year I want to spend more time with them. If you can’t tell your parents you miss them, you can tell it by saying you want them to come home, or go somewhere so you can bond.

    I was underweight before but I gained enough wait in college and until now my weight is now normal. I think you just need to eat and eat! Haha I also noticed on your photos na pumapayat ka nga. Kain ka madami at wag masyadong pa-stress.

    Advance happy new year Clint! 🙂

  2. Hi Clint! Long time no read ako sa mga blogs nyo but I’m happy that somehow nagkakatime ako these days because I really want to relive my blogging spirit. Hahah kahit stressed sa school. Anyways, it seems that you’ve had a lot of challenges in 2015. I must say, I also had a share of downtimes, and whenever I can’t help but just feel negativity in me, I write peoms.. or well sort of poems.. kahit na hindi naman malaLangLeav ganun hahah pero ayun in Instagram I do update at times with short ones, maybe you could try that outlet. If not, how about sports? or just simply running to boost the adrenaline and dopamine boost we sometimes crave. Work… hmm I’m not yet working until now and it’s kinda frustrating dahil I see pepole earning now, while I’m here studying still. Pero as I’ve seen below,Mei got a point… maybe we could try expressing thoughts to the supervisor if ever. And let’s hope for the best! 🙂 For now, happy new year! It’s never too late diba? We will not be sad in the ong run.We have our life to live! Gaano man kahirap, alam mo naman kung ano ang makakapagpasaya sayo. We will be successful! 🙂


    • I must have an outlet nga siguro. Write poems? Nako baka abutin ako ng syamsyam bago makasulat ng isang stanza.
      No one attempted boss for career change e. Or I transfer sa ibang unit/department. Baka ako pa lang. Chos.

      Yeah, I’m back, sorta back, on blogging. Sana tuloy tuloy like you guys.

      XO Happy Holidays

  3. I get you when you say that you end up looking and not finding any words to describe the year that was. But I do hope that 2016 would be much better for you, Clint! 🙂

    Happy new year!

  4. My year was horrible but I’m trying to remain positive regardless. 2016 will be better if we remain positive no matter what! Start thinking positive little by little and it gets better. I promise you!

  5. Sometimes it is a really good idea just to let go and see where you thoughts take you on a blog entry. Especially if there is a lot that is occupying your mind.
    Sometimes when you are not are going through a time when things are mostly negative you need to spend a bit of time focussing on you. Maybe someone that you really click with will become apart of your life, and I hope they will.

    It’s so great that you are working for a company that you had wanted to be part of. I am sure that over time you will find yourself in a better position, and I am sure that they will be able to see that you are very capable of doing it.

    It must be difficult at this time of year, when your family situation is complicated. Especially when a lot of people share stories of being around family. I know that everyone has a different upbringing and no family life is the same. I hope that over time, you might be able to heal here. <3

    That would be frustrating trying to gain weight. It wouldn’t help either that a lot of sties and media don’t take it seriously, when it is. Maybe the protein drink would be good, I am not really sure. Would it be possible to see a dietician that might be able to help?

    I hope that 2016 will be a much better year. 😀

    • I’m focusing on writing posts whatever my mind tells me to, but I’m considering private information might be shared.
      This is one long comment and I am so flattered. Thank you for taking time reading my blog.

      You have a better 2016 as well Kya. Love much.

  6. It’s unfortunately you had to go through and think about these things for a year-end. I feel you in so many ways. But just hold on and let 2016 beautifully unfold for you. 🙂 I just wish you many great things this year!
    Mimi | Chasing Bleu

  7. Hey, cheer up. Yes, you should always be thankful. I see positive vibes in you. 2016 will be different, as long as you try. Don’t focus on finding “the one” yet don’t stop looking. Be grateful you have a job, me? I can’t even find one. This family drama is relatable, although, I recently accepted my situation [quite different from you], it got better. Urgh health. As long as we’re not that sick then it’s fine hahahaha


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